Friday, May 18, 2012

molting

I know, I went on another brief hiatus.  Life gets a little crazy sometimes, you guys know how it goes.  I'm not going to offer any sort of long explanation because, well, who really cares about that? Not me, that's for sure.  I'm just going to dive right into what's on my mind right now.

I'm molting.  

Well, in a sense.


To molt means to shed in order to make way for new growth.  Normally used to describe the shedding of old skin, my version is going to be used to describe the outgrowing of an old life (also because shedding old skin provides a pretty terrible mental image).  I am officially halfway through my college career.  With only two years to go, I can't complain about the way most things have happened so far.  But I'm struggling, and that struggle is coming from a budding complacency.  And this complacency has led me to an overwhelming feeling of being "just okay."

But I don't want to be "just okay."  I want to be so incredibly excited for every happening in my life that a Webster's dictionary couldn't possibly assist me in choosing the perfect words to describe it.  And how am I going to do that?  Well, by molting.  By shedding my old ways and exploring this great city of Birmingham for new things, or at least rediscovering the beauty in the old.

I'm already settling into a new environment*, and now it just comes with making those inspiring new connections.  I desire some fresh faces to guide me along the way!  I know everyone from weight loss ad campaigns to fervent religious leaders claim summer time as a time to be the best you, but that is not what this is about.  I already like me, I'm just ready to challenge me.  To excite me.  To delve into long-forgotten passions and garner an honest appreciation for why life has been so good to me. 


I don't have time to waste on being "just okay" any longer.


And with that....

I'm heading to bed (and if you guys know anything about me, you know by going to bed I mean I'm going to cuddle up with my Macbook and watch countless hours of past television programming on Netflix).  I know I always say it, but this time I mean it- stay tuned, folks.  There's a lot of fun content lined up for the future of this little corner of the blogosphere.



*Side note: Living alone has been awesome thus far except for one little issue: when I stay in, I want to stay in and be alone forever; when I go out, I never want to come back alone. Any of your fellow single dwellers experience this?

2 comments:

  1. Ugh Karla, I have been feeling this SAAAME exact way lately. So many things happening, so many old things ending or changing. And all the while I've just been "okay". The complacency. It's what it does. Glad I read this though, just more motivation to not let that get in the way of life. I'm glad you're loving your new crib, and yes, when I lived on my own I went through the same stages of wanting to be hidden alone in the house with a pack of Oreos and 30 Rock and then arriving home after a fun night and not being able to sleep bc "NOBODY'S HERE". Just the way it goes, haha. Can't wait to possibly visit soon. Ciao!

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  2. God. I completely identify with this post in it's entirety. I just know that I have a constant WANT..a want for something I'm unsure of. And I know I need the excitement that used to surround me to find its way back. Jan is so right about livin alone. So right that I could actually have spoken vicariously through her. You just have to embrace the "alone", though. Sometimes alone is exactly what you need for the excitement to return in new ways! We need to visit soon!^

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